Things not going so well today - residual from yesterday, in which I reached overload and spent the day avoiding paying bills.
Need to deal with that one right away. Even when things aren't tight, I stress about the bill paying. For three days my stomach hurts and I display major avoidance action. You know what? We always manage. The month after Christmas is generally hard, but it's not unmanageable. I don't doubt that even if we had tons of money, I'd still worry that it wasn't going to be enough. Not very grown up of me. Got to work out a system, but I don't know what it is yet. February's a short month - maybe it will feel better.
We saw the nutrition doctor yesterday. If we did things her way, we would completely stop eating any processed foods at all, which at the moment would mean throwing away a ton of food, which I'm not going to do. Any step we make and keep making in the right direction will result in improvement. So my strategy with her is going to be to make what changes I can, consistently as possible, in our food consumption. Any activity I can get the family involved in is better than none, so give us points for what we do accomplish. Monitor the heck out of Rosanne and her impulses to give the kids junk on a regular basis. Bad girl for taking them to McDonald's? Yes, she could have planned ahead. Most of all, I want to stop feeling pressured to do it all perfectly and then feeling guilty about it. One hour of electronics/ tv a day? That is a family decision, and moderation is going to have to be enough. I can't fight that many battles. Sheesh. When I see her, I'm just going to report the good stuff.
My present black mood has kept me from accomplishing a whole lot. So next week will be a fresh start.
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